Had an interview at Natalee's Thai today. I've been delaying my applying for the second job, cuz I thought, maybe I don't really need it. But the more I think about it, I am sure I'd need to earn more money before I decide to move back home.
First, Mom and Dad are leaving for hajj this year, this means, I'd have to pay the rest of the cost by July. And that's like 4 months from now! I'd better be hurry, right? Right now, I'm barely able to save. Not even a hundred bucks a month. And that's not good. Waitressing would definitely help.
And, moving would cost me some money. I'd have to buy the tickets, then figure out how to send my stuff home, which will cost me something. See, this is why I don't want to plan anything yet. Once I think about it, everything else was like.. brainstorming.
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Things to do:
1. Buy the domain (
checked!)
2. Find a cheap web-hosting plan (
checked!)
3. Start working on the design
Now I am doing the third one.. from now on, my weekends will be busier than ever. I'd be doing the site. The domain name cannot be revealed here. Wait til its up, okie?!
Can't wait!! ;-)
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Lazy me, i didnt go to work today. Why? cuz i am still pissed at AS. she told me to never yell at customers, i was like:
why didnt you take the call then? you know i get irritated easily when people scream at me. I know it's rude to yell at people, and not a good customer service by doing so. But who cares?! I'm not paid to be yelled at. That's why I hate taking phone calls. And why didn't she do it herself? We split the hours of taking calls, I do it in the morning, she does it after lunch. And the call occured at 1pm. The reason she didnt pick up the phone because she's about to go to lunch. :-( Screw her. Thats why I didnt come to work. I sent out an email saying I took a sick day. I know it sounds silly, but oh wells. She should've known better that I wouldn't scream at people unless they do it first.
Anyways, I stayed at home the whole day, cleaning the kitchen and mop my apartment floor. Went to Calif. Market to get some fruits and vegetables. Spring is definitely here cuz I saw strawberries at the store.
Picked up only one box cuz I dunno if it's sweet. I then cooked, and also watched 4 episodes of Stairway To Heaven. It's so nice being in a clean, quiet, roomy apartment while eating my own cooking, having strawberries for dessert and watching sad korean dramas with a box of tissue next to the bed. Heheheh..
I surely will miss this feeling when I am in Jakarta. Jakarta is never quiet. Not even at night. I will miss all the convenient way of living here.
Yet, I know I will be happy and grateful being close to my family again.
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hujan=headacheamit deh, ujan mulu nih.. katanya spring, tapi mana? matahari ga keluar. dao ming tse juga kesian.. pasti dingin keujanan mulu. walhasil hari ini gue ga masuk gawe. 'pala nyut2an. akhirnya terdampar di apartment doing nothing but rest and eat.
dao ming tse tambah kesian, gue parkir dibawah, iseng tadi gue poto ajah dr jendela. iye, dao ming tse tu yang ijo, belakangnya tu yg mazda merah. kelihatan ga?
I am lost again at 8:16 PM |
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my dinner tonight:
*iseng mode on*
I am lost again at 8:34 PM |
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have you experienced any miracles in your life?I had. One. Today.
Yesterday, I went to HR Block to file my '04 tax return. The accountant gave me an estimate before we started to go into any details (which was very nice of him), and he said I owed $1,766 to the IRS! He said I made much more than last year and paid taxes less. I said that's impossible. I thought the company took so much from my paycheck. I was shocked, but wasn't worried. I told him, ok, I'd be back tomorrow to file it. I told my friends about it and they were all shocked too. They asked me what I wanted to do. I said, I don't know yet, but I let Allah do the rest. I wouldn't worry about it too much. And I knew I owed nothing to IRS, especially that much.
Anyways, so I hung out with my friends almost all day yesterday, then went to the beach. I came home, prayed, and went to sleep.
This morning I woke up feeling refreshed, the weather is waaaay much nicer outside. I opened the window, felt the morning breeze, took a deep breath, and sat on my desk. I started looking at the tax documents all over again, and there it was.
Stupid me.
The W-2 forms that I gave to the accountant was from year 2002 and 2003. No wonder it was so much, because it's 2 years of my salary! hahaha.. I laughed my butt off. Duh??! How come I was that stupid didnt look at the year?! And why didnt the accountant guy see it either?
After having my breakfast, I drove back to HR, smiling and proudly said to the guy, ok, I am ready to file my tax return! He then looked at my papers again, and said, what happened? why is it different? When I told him that it was my old docs, he laughed! He said sorry for not looking at it closely, I said fine. I felt stupid too.
He then typed my information, and voila!
IRS owed me $512, and $118 from state of California!
And that my friend, I call a "MIRACLE"
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santa monica beachIt's been a while since the last time I went to the beach. Been wanting to go there even before I went to Indo, but I kept putting it off. Besides the weather has been ugly lately. So I hung out with kartini and isti today til about 5pm and on the way to kartini's house, the sun suddenly came out. I was like.. cool, I could go to the beach! Kartini said I was crazy.. she said its gotta be cold. I dun care.. I went anyway.
Driving up south to santa monica was a mess. Traffic everywhere! But I was so determined I got to see the ocean. When I got there, the parking guy already left, so it was free!! hehehe.. I love free stuff. Ya know it could go as high as $15 for parking by the beach, of course I was happy not having to pay!
And yes, it was freezing cold! But I am soooo happy to see the water. There's something about Santa Monica beach that touches my heart. It's so charming with the pretty hotels around it, and of course the pier! I got to see the sunset too! Beautiful! Allahuakbar!
I didn't stay too long because it's getting dark. But I did take pics below ;-)
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emang enak ditolak??!this morning kartini told me that cheesecake factory is opening a new restaurant at the grove. So they're hiring right now. I said.. cool.. worth to try. It'd be cool if I could waitressing there. Big restaurant means big bucks.
I went up there and filled out the application, apparently, they're doing the interviews right away. Finally one guy named Shawn called me, and the first question was "Do you have experience in waitressing?" I said "Yes, in 2001" and I saw his face changed "2001 huh?"
He went on and asked me few more questions, I tried my best to answer all.. but in the end, he was like "Well, we're looking for someone that is more experienced. Sorry. But thanks for trying though"
Ouch!
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kencangin tu iket pinggang!'syet deh.. hari ini gajian, tapi kok duit lewat doang yak? Asli gue musti beneran kencengin ikat pinggang nih. I thought I have been good with my money, but apparently I need to do more overtime work. If not, I'm gonna be in trouble. It's not like I am poor, but I don't have much left to save! And thats not good. I need to save up more money for mom and dad.
Next month, if I still don't have enough money to save, amma look for a second job. For sure!
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Surprisingly, i found myself more at ease when talking about my divorce. Mia, my then co-worker, went online and we started talking. She asked me about him, and I was like.. oh, we're getting a divorce. Just like that. There was still pain, but not as bad. I used to pretend we're still together when people asked. I didn't lie to them, I just didn't tell we're separated. But it would only hurt me more. So I quit hurting myself, and quit pretending.
Mia was surprised, of course. Who wouldnt? I was too. hahaha..
But she's nice enough not to ask for more details.
Anyways, I am going back to the gym tonight. Gotta start doing my work-outs again. Gotta take care of myself and be healthy. And oh, I dyed my hair black yesterday, and I like it! I look better in black hair, I think ;-).
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LA has been gloomy the past week -like me-. this city will always remind me of him. sucks. it's been hitting me again. i hate thinking about him. not that i hate him. for some reason, i cannot make myself to hate him. he stood for what he believed, just like i did. but last night, i asked myself, would i come back to him? and i said NO.
there, i have the answer.
that's why i hate it when i miss him. cuz i know there's no reason to be sad anymore. its not like i want everything back. i no longer mind being alone. its just the quietness that i cannot stand.
enough about him and my feeling.
btw, voluntary i agreed to work overtime today. i need the money anyways. easier and better than looking for a second job. though i have my savings, but, i have to save up more if i want to move back home for good. again, i am not planning anything yet. i like it here, but i'd love to be close to my family again. good thing skilljam always have overtime job for me to do. if not, i'll prolly be waitressing (which i am not looking forward to).
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memories.. 
finally i uploaded my pics.. most of them came out really good. now its time to shop around for free prints.. hehehe..
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vacation is definitely over*-
yep, it's so over for me. i was insanely busy at work today, barely able to move. people at work were all nice though.. they're all welcoming me back. saying i need not to go on vacation ever again cuz apparently accounts dept was going crazy without me. hahaha.. emang enak?!
and oh, it feels good to see my car again, tao ming tse is dirty tho' :-(. amma have it washed tomorrow, make it clean and shiny like the real tao ming tse without his rambut nanas! hahaha..
on the way home, i went to california market to pick up some fruits, water and vegetables. gosh, the store was packed! but i managed to get everything i need -luckily-. now im home, so tired, but i have to get everything unpacked or i go crazy! it's so messy here i cant stand it.
(i am trying to call Ibu too but no one picked up the phone) *sigh*
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tips biar ga jetlagsumpah, gue ngantuk banget sekarang! tapi gue tahan tahan ga tidur siang, abis takut keterusan, ga dapet sholat plus besokannya jetlag. Mending gue tahanin dah ah, sekalian nunggu abis isya aja tidurnya, walopun muka gue uda ancur banget. ngantuknya ga ketulungan. sengaja dari tadi unpacking, sebagian makanan uda gue taro di kulkas, baju2 yang agak2 basah (dingin) gue pisahin biar dikeringin di mesin. trus vcd vcd yang bujubuneng banyaknya juga uda gue pisahin sendiri. masi berantakan sih, abis ngerjainnya sambil ngantuk, jadi ga keruan gitu hasilnya. biar deh..
karena dari kemaren ngumpul ama bapak ibu, lupi, mbak evi, mas bagus en meti, pan rame tuh, nah gitu sekarang disini sendiri.. berasa sepi deh! hiks hiks..
tadi gitu nyampe apartment, perut langsung mules. abisannya lafar. ya udah, masak nasi, untunge masi ada nugget di freezer, jadi bisa makan siang pake itu. planningnya sih mo ke kantor tadi, ngambil mobil. tapi gara gara LA marathon, si jesse ga ngantor. sementara kunci buat masuk gedung ada di dalem mobil. klo ga ada orang disana, ya sami mawon, ga ada yang bisa bukain pintu buat gue. udalah.. mending besok aja sekalian. badan juga rasanya capek banget kaya abis digebugin gini.
abis, di pesawat gue cuman bisa tidur 3 jam: sejam pas di pesawat jakarta-tokyo, sejam pas terdampar di airport, trus sejam lagi pas di pesawat tokyo-la. filemnya bagus sih, jadi gue nonton mulu, ampe ga sempet tidur. wajar kan klo gue ngantuk berat?!
susah emang klo mo menghindari jetlag, tapi ini harus gue lakuin karena besok gue musti kerja. kan bete aja klo nguap nguap mulu (efek jetlag).
btw, i got to talk to pete earlier. he's no longer at the hospital and was back at home since yesterday, which is good. he didnt have to have the eye surgery. and tomorrow is his birthday too.
I am lost again at 5:26 PM |
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back to reality:<
wierd. thats one thing I felt as I walked in to my apartment. it smells new paint, it feels empty, quiet, and cold. as small as it was, mbak evi's place was far more alive than this place. why don't i feel like i belong here anymore? i used to love LA, but today, LA didnt seem as intriguing.
maybe i am just homesick.
or maybe its because i knew i have other option waiting in Jakarta. I like it here, I like how convenient everything is here, how comfortable living I have, but I don't have no body. I am by myself. I have no one to talk to.
but also, i quit planning things. i'm just gonna go with the flow. i'll live my life moment by moment. If it meant to be, it meant to be.
Shortly after Dennis offered me a job on the day I left for LA, the whole family was excited. I was too. But I kept reminding myself to just keep it calm. I am in no hurry going back to Indonesia
for good. Afterall, I will have to wait for my divorce paper to be finalized. I want the paper in hand before deciding anything.
so.. we'll see! ;-)
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back at Narita airport. I just checked my office email and heard about Pete's having a bad accident. One of his eye could go blind! Oh God.. please do not let that happen. He's a dear friend of mine. My prays go for him. Hope he's doing better soon.
Hope I can get the address to the hospital he's staying, I'll definitely visit him.
Btw, I am stuck here at the airport, the immigration officer didnt let me out of the gate. I couldnt even go to the main building, only to the boarding gate area. Stupid.
Oh wells.. I'll be doing nothing but reading for the next 7 hours!
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i am at lupi's office now, waiting for her before i am headed to pasaraya for dinner with my friends.
btw, Indonesia is FUN!. I enjoyed every minute of it, the whole time i am here, i keep thinking about whether i can live here again. i love my country dont get me wrong, but the weather sucks! and the traffic oh my gosh.. its killing me. Other than that, i have my family, the food is delicious, and CHEAP as hell! and my friends are all here..
Oh, I spent two days with Maya on Sunday and Monday, and we had so much fun! It's like the good 'ol days.. Glad i got to spend some time with her again after so many years being apart.
Aite, gotta go.. mo sholat dulu. The next time I write I would be back in LA.. hiks hiks..
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